"Meltdown"

Sometimes I wish I could just not care about anything. Why did I have to be made to have all these feelings? It's not fair: against my will, I am forced to feel all this, and in return I am pegged as nonsensical. Where's the justice? Where is all the love I am told is "obviously there"? I don't want to cry when I express myself but the tears fall on their own. I don't think I'm an exception. Even those who appear to feel nothing must hide a certain amount of emotion. These people enjoy more power over those who find it impossible to suppress their feelings. I suppose this is why men control the world, and those women who were able to get ahead have done so by swallowing a whole lot of suffering. How can one embrace one's womanliness without ending up disappointed?